Wednesday, May 31, 2006

Tribute to a Friend...

Hi Friends:

It has been a somber time for those of us here in blogville who were acquainted and friends with Larry. I appreciate all of your kind words and thoughts. It means a lot to me and the other friends that visit here and were friends and fans with Larry. One of our mutual friends, Sugar asked me if I could leave her tribute here on my blog. I am honored to do so. Sugar and Larry were friends for a long time, and it was my surfing and stumbling onto Sugar's site that brought me the opportunity to become acquainted with Larry. It is amazing how people touch your lives; especially when we are least expecting it.

Because Larry touched so many of us, there has been a blog set up to honor his memory. It is a place dedicated to remembering him and paying respect to his family and friends. Please go visit there, because some of the most beautiful words and thoughts that I have ever read in blogvile are written there to honor our friend. And of course any of you that wish to contribute please e-mail me, and I will be happy to post your thoughts on the site.

http://friends-of-larry.blogspot.com

Be well friends! And stay tuned for HNT...Larry's favorite day here in Blogville!

XOXO~ANDI

WORDS FROM SUGAR~

about my friend larry...

what does one say about someone they have never touched.. yet felt very touched by him ...how many times did we pray for me?... too many to count that is for sure..

he always had encouraging words when i wanted to just give up.. he let me know all isnt lost .. and i could maintain my life.. my kids... my sobriety and sanity... how many nights did we sit up for hours talking cuz we couldnt sleep.. meeting at the "clubhouse" for the insomniacs..

going to bed in the wee hours and his time zone was an hour ahead of mine.. yet here he would sit.. making sure all was well before bed... im sure he lost many a nights sleep due to our chats...

how can i ever forget the story of him in his boots (only) running with his rifle ... or the day he smashed his thumb in the door trying to get to the hang up call... or looking for something interesting on TV cuz there was nothing else to keep us company... or even trying to defend tom "im an idiot" cruise... LOL ..

yeah larry.. you my friend are missed already!

to anyone that knew larry here ... he really loved us... each and everyone with his wit and charm ... he was the best... making us laugh or understand or just plain happy to be here today.. each day! .. so let me say.. LARRY! ... thank you.. for you.. thank GOD for you...

to his family.. my condolences to you.. for the man you all knew and loved... and god bless us all .. as he is in that perfect place he always knew would be there for him... always your friend...

SUGAR

Tuesday, May 30, 2006

Remembering you...


I remember when we first met. You were sitting on a bar stool in the cyber bar. I came in and looked around. I was not sure what to do or what to say, but you made me feel welcomed. You told me to take a seat and you helped introduce me to the blogsphere. The day I walked in it was the day that Texas won the big game against USC. The bar was full of chat; everyone was happy that USC had lost. I was embarrassed. I was the USC alumni and you were the farmboy. We started to talk, and you did not see me as the enemy; just a friend. You saw me as the person who was new, and you took me under your wing. We chatted for hours; me, you and Sugar. We laughed, and teased. You made me smile, and you made me forget that I was having a bad day.

We met up again, night after night. You would tell me of your busy days on the farm, and I would tell you of my busy days working with my clients. You always made me feel good about who I was and what I did. You told me I made a difference in the lives of others and you admired my strength. I would giggle, because I thought that your job was amazing. You were so resiliant and so driven. You wanted to make a difference too. You wanted to help make this world a better place; just in a different way. You knew I did not want to think about your cows being sold for their meat, so you told me everytime you left for a trip you were off to the "zoo." You let me live in my place of comfort. You laughed when you heard I like tofu, and always encouraged me to eat more beef. I giggled when you shared your concerns about your dreams and thoughts and you would always ask,"Andi, does that make me weird?" Weird; you never were!

Larry you were the most courageous person I have ever talked with. You always looked for the sun through the clouds, and never said an ill word about anyone. You made me laugh, and knew just what to say when I was down. You helped remind me of what my purpose was, and made me feel at home in the blogosphere. You knew how to be a friend, and you were protective of those you love~which makes you an amazing man!

Thank you sweet Larry for bringing the sun into my life, and shedding a new light on things I did not always see clearly. Thank you for sharing your wisdom with me and letting me know where I belonged in this world. Thank you for the endless laughs, the big hugs you sent through cyber~space, your introducing me to my fan~club. Thank you for your admiration and unconditional love. Thank you for sharing your parenting ideas, and letting me dig into your mind! Thank you for laughing when I said the word "mother~fucker" and thinking I was amazing. Thank you for being so predictable so as letting me win all those late night bets with Sug! Thank you for offering to make that stop on your road trip to "kick some ass." Thank you Larry for teaching me and guiding me to find the better person that lies within. And, of course thank you for your last words you told me to remember! I promised you I would follow through and I will.

I hope you are at peace, and that you have found a wonderful place in that heavenly zoo. And most of all, I am glad you found love!

I will miss you my sweet Farmboy~!

xoxo~
andi


PS~I took this pic and posted it months ago. Larry, thought it was hilarious! He said he never had his name on a peice of paper next to a boot!

Monday, May 29, 2006

May is for MASTURBATION...


So, I have heard through the blogosphere grapevine that May is Masturbation month and that bloggers were to write about their masturbation experiences. I realized today that it is almost June, so I best get my ass in gear and post! After contemplating on what to write, I came up with this little interview format on myself...enjoy!

So, Andi....how often do you masturbate?

Well, I masturbate at least twice a day. I love to masturbate. It clears my mind, and makes me feel tingly!

Do you think of anyone or anything while you do it?

Oh, I think about certain people. Sometimes I think about certain situations. I think about things that I hear, or were said to me. The last thing I thought about was eating a chili dog and having an incredible kiss...I know, this sounds weird...but the scenario was sexy, and I was hungry!

Where is the oddest place you have ever masturbated?

Hmmm...well, I had to think about this for awhile. But, I think that the oddest place would of been in a guard booth outside of a courthouse. My boyfriend at that time took me in there to spend a few minutes with me, and he asked me to do myself. I sat up on the desk, took my underwear down and began to rub my clit. People were walking around the street, but I tuned that all out. When I was done, he was so turned on that he ended up fucking me right there. He bent me over the desk and I could look out of the window and see people walking by. It was really hot!

Have you ever masturbated while on the phone?

Absolutley! It is exciting. I like to hear the other person cum. I can hear it well because it is in my ear, and it turns me on! Wow, I miss that.

Do you use your fingers or toys?

It depends. I like my toys, but sometimes my hands are more conveinent. Sometimes, I will use my hands and a toy...it makes more an intense time!

So, there it is. Any other questions, please feel free to ask me in my comments...and we will see what you all come up with for me to answer!!

xoxo~
andi

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Saturday, May 27, 2006

Snowy Saturday...


Yep, its true..it snowed today. Three inches on the ground as we speak. I actually had to light a fire tonight, and my daughter wore a turtle neck. It seems like summer is never coming! But, that is the joy of living up at the lake...you never know what the weather will do.

So, I want to thank you all for your kind thoughts about Chris's mom. We are saddened, but it was for the best. She was elderly and frail, and we find comfort knowing that she is in a better place and with Chris's dad again. His parents were married almost fifty years when he had passed away. I am sure that his mom is happy to be in her lover's arms again. She had a lovely life, and has beautiful children and grandchildren.

Anyway, so like I said earlier..I am behind. But, I am catching up. I will be posting Ask Andi later this weekend. As promised, the wonderful and talented Ed from Edtime Stories will be my co-author~I have to tell you all, that Ed is probably one of the most insightful people I have ever talked to. I trust his advice, and I am sure that you will all enjoy his insight as much as I do! So, anyone else that has questions, let me know. As promised, all will remain anonymous!

So I decided to do a 25 things about me post...The theme this time will be 25 things that I do not let everyone know about myself...but, you all get the scoop! So, dont make me go tag you...any volunteers??

1. I am extremely insecure about who I am.
2. I do not always like being a mom.
3. I hate responsibility.
4. I am really bad at managing money.
5. I was estranged from my father for five years after he and my mother divorced.
6. I failed my first semester of college.
7. I diagnose everyone I meet or talk to within minutes!
8. I am a stress eater.
9. I tripped on the stage when I got my diploma for my undergrad degree.
10. I kissed a guy at a club one night (when I was drunk) who had no teeth.
11. I am scared I will not live to see my daughter grow up.
12. I regret the mistakes I make.
13. I blog to escape my reality, figure myself out, and remind myself of who I was and want to be again.
14. I am an insomniac.
15. I take a prescribed anti-depressant.
16. I dated a hit man once.
17. I like spending time by myself.
18. I was physically abused by my college boyfriend.
19. I am afraid of birds and ghosts.
20. I can not cook.
21. I have had to wear glasses since I was two years old.
22. I gave up a job that paid twice what I make now to stay at home with my daughter when she was born.
23. I have one CD that I keep hidden...it is a country CD, and I tell everyone that I hate country music, even though I listen to this one CD by myself.
24. I drift off when I am in therapy sessions with clients at times.
25. I do not want to be a therapist anymore; I think I am losing my empathy for others and it is scary.

xoxox~
andi

Friday, May 26, 2006

Friday...


Hi Friends...
Well, I am a little behind. I had a crazy, busy week. I made it FINALLY through my legal stuff with my client. I kicked ass...and I am SO greatful that it is over!! Well, I suppose until the next incident occurs!

But, anyway...so since I have nothing, and I have been busy, and we just heard that Chris's mom passed...I leave you with a HNT Flashback, and a Friday Tune..have a wonderful weekend to you all.

Oh, and to my sweet friend who is having some serious medical testing done today....I am thinking about you, and all will be okay....it has to be!

So, with that all said, at least I have the next 4 days off! I guess that leaves me lots of time to dig in the dirt and plant more flowers, read my journals that I am SO behind on, and of course have lots of sex and masturbate!!

Hugs~
andi

So here is the Friday Tune.....

REASON by Hoobstank

I'm not a perfect person
There's many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is YOU

I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
That’s why I need you to hear

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is YOU

I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is YOU

I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is YOU

Tuesday, May 23, 2006

Idol Illness....


He was there..sitting in the audience...looking for me! I could see him, through the crowd. I saw his dark brown eyes, and those sexy lips. He had the light shining on the top of his bald, sexy head. Our eyes connected. I was looking to him, and reaching out.....and then the camera moved...to HER! That tall brunette! Yeah, you know the one! The brunette who brings her dad on to cry in the audience (so people feel sorry and vote for her), and has to show off her boobs so that no one realizes how bad she sings! The one that sits on stage, and bends back as if she is about to have an orgasm...all the men shudder. She sings "Somewhere over the Rainbow"....yeah, it is good; but come on...it is the song from the Wizard of Oz! Please! How many of us are going to go down the road at 7 am and sing with her during our commute?? Not me!!

So, then there is the awkward silver headed....Soul Patrol, Taylor! Oh yes, you are no where close to sexy Chris, but at least I could imagine getting drunk and dancing and singing to him. And, lets face it he can play a harmonica and any man that is talented with his mouth has my support! Yes, he dances like he takes 800 mgs of Methadone....and he does that horrible little holler when he is on stage...but he is growing on me. And, lets face it...at least it is not Chicken-fucken-Little!

Alright, so I know I said that I was not going to watch Idol any longer but...there is not a damn thing on t.v. on Tuesday night! I seriously do not watch a lot of t.v. but when I do...I want it to be my way! So, lets do the world a favor, and all the morning commuters! Lets show the twelve year old girls who got rid of our beloved Chris that we mean business! Lets all keep our fingers crossed that the Silver Fox a.k.a. Soul Patrol a.k.a. I am not big boobs McPhee a.k.a. Taylor Hicks becomes the next American Idol/One hit wonder!!

Hugs Homies!!
andi

Ps~Ask Andi will be back on Thursday..send your questions! This week we will have a twist..it will be advice from yours truly and a special male blogger! Yep, we will do a female/male Ask Andi. Oh, and it is time for another...25 things...I am just trying to figure out a good theme...let me know if you have any ideas!

Sunday, May 21, 2006

Sometimes you just have to fertilize!


Well, as most of my sweet regular readers know....I have been thoroughly depressed lately. Yep, I actually had two days where I did almost nothing except drink wine, and whine! I even ate a whole small thin crust Domino's cheese pizza. I devoured every morsel within 20 minutes, and it made me sick. I ran around in my pjs. I did not feel like showering until late into the evening. I cried, blew my nose...talked to friends about how miserable I felt. I questioned whether or not I was having a mid~life crisis. The sad part was that if I were having a mid~life crisis...well, I would be dead at 64! I bitched about things here on my blog. I bitched to my sweet friends here in the blogosphere who emailed me and told me to hang in there. I teared up when I saw that my friend Edtime actually said the nicest things imaginable about me over at his place when he did his tag using the letter A. I did not go to work on Thursday because I seriously was afraid I may tell one of my clients that my life was worse than theirs. (I know, can you believe they still let me practice~)

Pathetic, I know!

But, here it is late Sunday night....7 more minutes until Monday starts...Yes, a new week. I just realized that I have been focused on the wrong things the last couple of months. I have been looking for greener grass! The weird thing is...I already have grass. Yes, it is not the greenest in the neighborhood, and there are some weeds etc. but, maybe...just maybe if I roll up my sleeves, and actually start to work on the grass I already have, it can be just as green if not better!

So, as lame as this analogy sounds I have decided that I am going to fertilize, and water...and of course pull the weeds~! I am going to work on making my grass the best grass that there is! I am sure I will have some barriers...like, if the neighbors dog craps in the middle of my grass, or if I get overwhelmed and want to eat another whole pizza, but I need to keep going. And if worst come to worst, I will just plant some damn sod in the places that are not getting healthier!!

Hugs~
andi

Saturday, May 20, 2006

Spin, Steam, Sex....


So, yesterday morning I reluctantly crawled out of bed at 5 a.m. to head off to my morning spin class. I was tired and sore. I reached over to turn the alarm off, and Chris woke and said he wanted to go with me. This was a little surprising, because normally he just likes to lift weights and run....but, I decided to indulge him. First I gave him the ground rules though; 1) he could not spin behind the little bitches in the front row....they like to wear tight bike shorts and they make the rest of us look like crap 2) he was not allowed to talk to me during the class. I know this sounds mean, but I really NEED to concentrate to be able to keep going. Luckily, he agreed and we went to the class. Half way through, we were both dripping with sweat and he looked at me and said, "Damn, this class is hard!" I laughed and told him to keep pedaling. Another half hour, and we were done.

It was weird, the gym was completely dead this morning; hardly anyone around. I started complaining to Chris that my hips were sore, and he suggested that I go sit in the steam room. I have never done this before, but supposedly the moist heat is good for the aches and pains. He nicely agreed to come with me. We entered into the room, and it was hot and humid. There was a bench that went all away around, and we were the only two people in there. After sitting for awhile Chris came up next to me, and began to rub my back. I was laying on the bench on my stomach. Before long, he had his hands up my tank top and was unfastening my bra. I rolled over, and he had a huge bulge in his shorts. I smiled at him, and went to the door. I opened the door and there was no one around. I grinned and came back over to him. I pulled his shorts down and put his cock in my mouth. He leaned back and lightly moaned. The excitment of our doing something so taboo, and the anticipation of our almost getting caught made it all the more pleasuable for us both. Before long, Chris grabbed the back of my head, and shoved my mouth down on his shaft. I sucked; devouring every inch of him. I looked up, and he smiled and told me he wanted to fuck me. We were hot and sweaty. My hair was wet and was clinging to my face and shoulders. I took my shorts off and crawled up on his lap. He began to fuck me. It felt so fucken good, and it had been a long time since I felt so focused and in the moment. He fucked me harder and harder with his hands on my hips. I rode him and pushed myself up and down his shaft while using his shoulders to get good leverage. He put my tits in his mouth, and we both moaned louder and louder. I began to tremble as I came all over him. He was so turned on by the way I trembled and moaned that he too came. I could feel his hot, load shoot all over my leg as he pulled out. Breathless, we kissed. I could taste the salty sweat on his mouth. He hugged me and slapped me on my ass. I whispered to him that it was time to go.

I think that after this experience, Chris needs to join me in spin class more often~

xoxo~
andi

Thursday, May 18, 2006

Anniversary...


Alright, so I heard there was an anniversary happening around the blogosphere today. So, in honor of HNT...here is my first HNT post I ever made. Yes, I know...I am showing my naked ass again, but....shhhhh.....don't tell!

Hugs and Love~
andi

Wednesday, May 17, 2006

The L Word.....


Okay, so I graciously agreed to play along with this little tag that Mike had going on over at his place....and yes, he gave me the letter L!

So here is how it works: You get a letter assigned to you, and you have to come up with 10 words that begin with that letter and then give your thoughts on it...hmm...sounds simple enough right? Anyway, the fun part is...you volunteer to be tagged. Let me know if you want a letter, and I will assign you a letter and then you post....yes, I know I am going to get some volunteers right???

Okay, here I go...Letter L.....

Life: Forrest Gump said that life was like a box of chocolates...well, if that were true, I would probably be a little more optomistic about it. Yes, I know I am in a funk, and I am having to work out some issues. I am so sorry to dump this all here. I promise fun, sexy Andi will be back soon. Anyway, as for life...well um,....what can I say?

Lawyers: Sorry to all my lawyer friends...but, lawyers suck! Oh, and I feel so bad saying that but that is where I am today. I am in the midst of some legal stuff still at work, and my lawyer sucks. Well, and lawyers they know exactly how to get under my skin...well, that is all I can say right now!

Love: Love always tend to come into my life at inopportune times! What the hell! Why can I not have a normal loving relationship. Why is it when you want to be swept off your feet it never happens and it disappoints, and when you are not looking for it and you think you are content it comes and bitch slaps you. Love always happen to me when I am not ready. I like to be prepared. Also, I think you can love in different ways...different people. A friend of mine told me...he loved me the other day at the end of our conversation, and then stopped and said..oh, I shouldn't of said that...why not? We are friends? I care about him and love him for that? My brother tells me he loves me all the time...he actually says "i love you" and it feels good. I know he does, and I love him. When Chris says "andi I love you" it is with such admiration. Hell, love is confusing, and it hurts and sucks when it is not reciprocated.

Lust: Lust is so fun, and it gives you those butterflies in your tummy. It can be the catalyst for change, and change can be good. The problem with lust is when it walks the grey line and becomes intense emotions...and then well...you are fucked! Damn, I hate lust..it screws with my head every damn time!

Limits: I hate limits...I do not want to be restrained. I want to fly as high as I can. Half the time I put my own limits on myself, and I need to stop it. I need to learn to throw caution to the wind!

Learning: Will we ever learn everything we need to know? I am smart academically, but damn I do some stupid stuff when it comes to common sense. I should know better too!

Light: It is annoying when I have been waiting for a message on my phone, and the light is still green....no message! I don't understand!

Luck: One of my sweet friends emailed me today and told me that he thinks he stood in the wrong line when they passed out luck. Amen, brother..I was right behind you! I wonder if we can get a refund?

Lyrics: How amazing is it to drive down the road and every song that your CD player randomly selects is about your day and life....I wonder if that means we have someone out there trying to tell us something.

Licks: Licking is good...licking is sexy, and licking me the right way can make me cum uncontrollably!


Okay, so there it is! Let me know which of you all wants your letter! Oh, and since we are on the letter L...enjoy another pic of the lake!

xoxo~
andi

Tuesday, May 16, 2006

Sometimes...


Hey guys! Well, this week is not done yet, and I have already managed to screw up two extremely important things in my life. I hate when that happens. So, to keep with my trend of self discovery, I decided to try another one of my crappy therapeutic writings...so here it goes!

Sometimes......

Sometimes, I wish I could remember who I was.
Sometimes, I regret things I have done.

Someday.....

Someday, I really hope he can forgive me.
Someday, I hope I find true happiness.

I am....

I am not always who I want to be.
I am a good person, and always try to do my best.

Regret...

Regret seems to consume me.
Regret makes me strive to be a better person.

Tomorrow......

Tomorrow, I hope I can change my perspective.
Tomorrow, is going to be one of the hardest days of my life.

Five years from now.....

Five years from now, I hope I have discovered who I am.
Five years from now, I hope you realized the mistake you made letting me go.

and lastly....(thanks Mike for this one...)

Sickness.....

Sickness will not be who I am ever again!
Sickness will not take over my life!


xoxxo~
andi

Oh, and here it is....at the request of of one of you.....your favorite HNT pic from the past!

Monday, May 15, 2006

Rant and Rave....


I debated whether or not to post tonight, and then I realized that maybe I should. I use this blog as my personal soap box. I admit I devour the attention and the support. It is hard for me to ever complain or rant in my real life. I always have to ingest others problems. It is very tiring. It can be so hard some days when your own head is racing to deal with someone else racing thoughts. I have to admit friends, my plate is full. When my plate gets full, I tend to do the unhealthy thing and fling it in the air...mostly, at people I care about. I emailed a dear friend I care about today and tried to push them away. Now, I sit here in total remorse hoping that they don't listen to me, and resist my pushing. I hate when I do that. I always tend to push those I love the furthest; mostly because I am afraid of being a disappointment. Hmmm..maybe I need a therapist?

Anyway, I am going to post a little something I like to call a Rant and Rave. The idea of this is to post a rant, and follow up by two raves. Sorta like saying one negative thing and following it up with two positive things. Yep, I am trying to see if the bull shit I dish all day actually works...so, hang with me. And, thanks for listening! Sometimes I think Bloggerville is the only place I can speak where people listen!

Rant: The little blonde bitch at the tanning center today gave me a look like I was an old lady. Fuck you little 17 year old. Wait until you have a baby and cancer and some years on you...good luck keeping your ass tight!

Rave: I had a good hair day today~which has not happened much lately since my last haircut.
Rave: I got to drink a soy latte today...I know this sounds stupid, but since I have been working with my trainer, I only get one a week!

Rant: Once again that little yellow car drove 12 fucken miles up the mountain! What the fuck! Get out of my way!

Rave: He joined me in the shower last night. I orgasmed three times.
Rave: He let me tie him up, and we had sex for another 45 minutes. I came another two times!

Rant: I am fucken tired! I need a break. I hate school, I hate being confused about what I want and need in life, and it is driving me nuts. I got some bad news about my health this weekend, and I am tired of it! It seems like I can never get over the hurdles! Why me?

Rave: My daughter made me a sweet picture at preschool. It is a flower made out of her foot and handprints.
Rave: I got beautiful diamond earrings for Mom's Day.

Rant: I had to pay 65 dollars to fill my gas tank today...what the fuck! You know how many bitchen pairs of shoes I can buy for that!

Rave: I am off on Wednesday! Thank goodness!
Rave: That hottie construction guy by my work had his shirt off again this morning! Oh my gosh! HOT, HOT, HOT!

Okay, so there it is, hmm...I actually sort of feel better now! If only I had a margarita!

xoxo~
andi

Sunday, May 14, 2006

Things about my mom...


Since it is Mother's Day, I am going to tell you a little about my mom, and some of the things that have shaped me. Now, keep in mind the my mom is only 19 years older than I, and she is also a therapist. Of course, this led to a heck of a time when I was a teen, and if she knew I was a sex blogger she would freak! But anyway, here are some thoughts about my mom....

~She is the travel agent for guilt trips....you name it, I have been there. If I did not have guilt, I probably would not be who I am today!
~My mom used to tell all of my dates in high school that she "dusts for fingerprints"~so embarrassing!
~I am thankful she sometimes would look past my coming home drunk on Saturday nights. I know she knew, she was just too tired to say anything.
~She drove 10 hours overnight the day my ex-husband moved out. We went shoe shopping all weekend and she never said a word about my being part of the reason.
~My mom says that spankings build character....that is why I have SO much character.
~Only my mom could tell when I had ditched school to go to the beach. Little did I know until years later she used to check the drain in the shower for sand.
~She made me volunteer during the holidays in soup kitchens so I would always know what it meant to have less.
~No matter how tired or busy she was, she always made us a homemade dinner and we sat around the table everynight.
~She never lets me feel sorry for myself. She always knows when to tell me to pull my head out of the sand, and she is never afraid to tell me I screwed up~even when I do not want to hear it.

So, I hope everyone else had a great Mom's Day!

xoxo~
andi

Friday, May 12, 2006

When we...


When we....

When...
When we first look into one another's eyes, you will see your future.
When we first touch, I will touch your soul.
When we first kiss, I will be your destiny.
When we first hold each other, you will of found the one thing that makes you content.
When we first make love, you will know I am your destiny.
When we first wake up next to one another, you will know you are in love.
I promise.

xoxox!~
andi

Thursday, May 11, 2006

Dear Andi


Okay, so as promised..I am answering the Ask Andi questions...now, these are some of my fav questions...All about Me....Thanks guys for your questions~

Dear Andi~
Please tell us the weirdest thing that happened to you today.

I love this question! Because today sucked! But I think the weirdest thing that happened to me today actually happened five minutes ago! I had a medical emergency at my office today with a client, and we had to call the paramedics. The medic that came was an ASS! Anyway, I have known him for awhile...which is probably why I do not like him...he just called me to ask me to dinner....Yeah right! What an idiot~!

Dear Andi~
I know you are a therapist, and I was wondering what type of clients you work with. If you can work with any type of client who would they be?

Well, I currently work with chronically mentally ill adults. I see people who have schizophrenia and other severe mood disorders. Most of my clients are homeless, and it is my job to try and help them sustain housing and take care of themselves. It can be very difficult. I have done this type of work for almost a year and a half, and I think I am burned out to be honest. I get depressed because no one ever gets better~they just sustain. Prior, I worked with domestic violence and sexual assault victims; both adults and kids. I have also worked with adolescent male sex offenders, and run~away teens. I think if I could pick what I could do, I would stick with working with teens. I love working with that generation...the problem is usually I also have to work with their parents too; this can be very challenging. If I had my ideal job, I would do more work with the court system. I have a forensic background, and I love the law! I just do not always like the attorneys!

Dear Andi~
Why do you not post your nekkid, hot body any longer?

Oh, I know...it is sad! But, to be honest I am in the midst of a legal issue with a client's family and the local police department. I am afraid that my blog may be found and then I will be screwed and not in a good way!

Dear Andi~
Why do you blog?

I blog as a release. I can talk so candid here, and I do not feel judged. I feel like I can be myself to an extent and that is very liberating. This is also a great way to remind myself who I am.

Dear Andi~
How many times did you masturbate yesterday, and do you think of anyone specific. If so, who is it? What are you two doing?

Nice one! Um, well yesterday I had the day off from work. I masturbated five times actually throughout the day. And, yes I do think of someone when I do it. But, that is between him and I!
Sorry!

Dear Andi~
If you were to reccomend any two books that could help someone understand their life better, what would they be?

Well, I think I would reccomend The Four Agreements and The Knight in Rusty Armor. These are my two favorites to reccomend to clients, and as a matter of fact I just had The Knight in Rusty Armor sent to one of my friends!

Dear Andi~
Where have you been my whole life?

Um, I have no idea. But, I know I have lived in Southern California for 19 years and then moved to Northern California after that! So, maybe the question should be....where have you been?


Alright, now that was fun! Have a great night friends!


xoxo~andi



Injustice!



There has been an injustice! What the hell happened? Am I in the Twilight Zone? Do I need to lose my faith in the women in America? Do 12 year old girls need to lose their access to speed dial? How can this be? He sang to me every Tuesday night~! Did you see the way he could wear a pair of jeans? And he could even sing! What the hell? I am baffled my friends! I am sad, and I can not believe that the hottest piece of eye candy to ever grace the American Idol stage is gone! Who am I going to fantasize about now?

Okay, I am not watching Idol anymore! I can not believe this. Now, I do not watch a lot of t.v. and now I will be watching less! What is gonna happen next? Are they going to kill off Dr. McDreamy on Grey's Anatomy?

Oh, I am SO sad. Let's just all hope that sweet little Taylor Hicks wins now. Because there is no way I am going to listen to that Katherine or Elliott when I drive down the road!

xoxo~
andi

Tuesday, May 09, 2006

Cheap Thrills


Happy Tuesday Friends! I see that most of you have completed your tags! They are wonderful, silly, funny and of course very insightful. I love tag time. I know you all probably hate when I tag you, but hey...it is fun! Anyway, I had a crappy day today so instead of getting on my rant box and bitching about life, I decided to discuss the little things that made me smile today. So, enjoy! Oh, and yes it is Ask Andi time again...I NEED questions, and those of you that have waited so patiently the last couple of weeks I promise to get to them in the next few days!

So, here it is....my CHEAP THRILLS....

1) I actually moon walked in my flip flops down the hall today at work....I still have it!
2) Um, Chris Daughtry...HOT, HOT, HOT...and thanks for sharing about the boxer briefs...and of course, singing to me again! YUM!
3) A man called tonight to take an opinion poll for our county...he told me I was brilliant! He must be a democrat too!
4) Chris teared up tonight when he was talking about how special our daughter is...it was very sweet.
5) I got an A on my paper I wrote last week.....thank you!
6) I ducked just in time to miss the stapler flying at my head over the front desk today from an angry client...that totally made up for my being called a cunt yesterday!
7) I was part of a three way...well, okay I was almost part of a three way. I got a three way call and I missed it.
8) I had a major bitch fest today at lunch with my colleagues....at my favorite vegan restaraunt..yum!
9) I lost 2 percent body fat while I have been on my protein diet and weight training....yippee! It makes drinking the raw eggs a lot better.
10) The three hot guys that hit on me today at the gym...oh, thanks so much for boosting my ego!!
11) Oh, and lastly I am still on a high from all the support I received from Blogville...thanks SO much!
12) Oh, and I almost peed my pants learning that there is a town in TX that has the world's largest pecan...and a parade..NICE!

Alright..there it is, my Cheap Thrills!!

xoxo~
andi

Monday, May 08, 2006

WTF? When did he learn that?


Alright! So here I am again, and I am greatful to see that I still have some fans out there..even if I look "cartoonish" now. Thanks D for that!

Anyway, so tonight I go to try out the other swim aerobics class, and the pool is closed. Now, this made me a little mad because I only had my swimsuit with me and not my gym clothes. So, I decided to go home and try out my new Carmen Electra Strip Aerobics DVD. Now, Chris anxiously sat on the couch and waited to see me try the sexy moves that Carmen was demonstrating. Now, friends I have taken a lot of dance lessons, and even some strip aerobics classes before at the gym, but Carmen has moves that I can not replicate! So, as I am fumbling about the living room, Chris gets up and eagerly tells me that I am doing it all wrong, and that I need to do it like this....um, yeah...he looked better than Carmen! WTF...where did he learn that? Had he been practicing while I was at work today? Maybe he had been a stripper in a former life? Well, whatever it was....it pissed me off! So, before I knew it...it was a strip off, and Chris was in the lead! How could this be?

So, my dilemma for this week is to kick the ass of the old lady in swim class tomorrow and then kick the ass of Chris in the Carmen Electra strip tease...Yep, game fucken on! Stay tuned!

And if I can not master this strip tease...than Madame X I am coming to take some dance lessons! Hopefully you can do something with this clumbsy, sized 10 shoe wearing woman!

Hugs~
andi

Sunday, May 07, 2006

15 Stupid/Silly Sexual Things About Andi


Okay, you asked for it...yep, it is time for another 15 things. This time the theme is stupid/silly sexual things about myself. And, all of my friends/fans are tagged! Yep, if I get to suffer through the list so do you..lol! I love being back!

1. I threw up on the stomach of the first guy that I tried to swallow for.
2. It took me two days to lose my viginity because it hurt so bad.
3. Sometimes it just does not fit. And when it didn't I got broken up with. Fuck him!
4. Did you ever see that scene in Clueless where Alicia Silverstone falls off the bed when she flips her hair...yep, I did that~! Totally embarrassing.
5. I was having sex during the last episode of the Tonight Show with Johnny Carson. Everytime I see the infomercial for his DVD's I giggle to myself.
6. I did not have sex the night of my honeymoon with my first husband. He got too drunk at our reception and passed out.
7. Certain smells of cologne make me wet.
8. I fell in the shower this morning when I masturbated.
9. I had a one night stand once and the guy I was with slapped my ass and said "yee haw"...yeah, I know.
10. I have cried after I have orgasmed before...totally kills the mood.
11. I have called someone the wrong name before during an orgasm.
12. I passed out during sex once.
13. When I was in college my boyfriend and I had sex on the hood of his car. He forgot to set the brake, and we rolled. We had to jump off.
14. When I worked in an emergency room a guy came in to have a hamster removed from his anus, and I had no idea why he would of put it up there.
15. I got burns on my chest once because I had hot chocolate sauce poured on me. We did not know that you were not supposed to make it hot. Ouch!

Okay, so there it is~enjoy~

xoxox~
andi

Saturday, May 06, 2006

Alright..Im Back!


I can not believe it! I keep getting more e-mail from friends asking me to rejoin the blogger world. I have to admit I am so touched! So, after some contemplation I decided to come back! I just will have to be pictureless for awhile. I know, I'm sorry! But, due to some interesting devleopments with my work practices, I need to be careful.

Anyway, so I thought tonight that I would join the world of bloggerville again by stealing some stuff from Chief and Lady...I like this, and I thought it would be a fun way to come back!

Yep, its another MEme!

I AM: a perfectionist. I do not expect others to be perfect necessarily, but I have to be perfect. The only problem is, that I am never satisified with myself...no matter what!

I SAID: Oh, I hate to say it, but I have said too many things that I regret.

I WANT: I want happiness...the kind that you only see in movies....I know, sickening! But, its true, I want to be so happy that I can't stand myself!

I WISH: I wish that I could be 100% okay with who I am. I wish I could stop being my own worst enemy.

I HATE: I hate ignorance, intolerance, and that jack ass that cut me off today on the freeway. I hate when I am over analytical and I do not take risks....risks that could be good for me.

I MISS: I miss that I have lost myself somewhat over the last few years. I am tired, I am getting old and sometimes I am lazy.

I FEAR: I fear that some day I will regret not taking chances. I fear that I will not be who I am meant to be.

I HEAR: I hear so much hurt and suffering. Sometimes, I just want to scream, "Hey, what about me."

I WONDER: If anyone really cares about who Andi really is.

I REGRET: I regret too much, most of which I probably should not give two thoughts to!

I AM NOT: who I want to be. I am not who I think I should be.

I DANCE: Oh, I have a dance for everything. It is really sad!

I SING: All the time! I should have a karaoke machine strapped to my back!

I CRY: I cry too much! I am so dramatic sometimes..I think it is because I am Italian...

I AM NOT ALWAYS: what people expect me to be.

I MADE: a decision that has totally changed my life about six weeks ago. Keep your fingers crossed it has a happy ending!

I WRITE: to be creative, and to relieve stress!

I CONFUSE: myself! I know, sounds stupid, but I do. I confuse myself when I am not listening to my heart and taking too much time listening and analyzing my brain.

I NEED: Oh, there is so much I need! I think it will start with a slow passionate kiss and then.....

I SHOULD: Do more laundry, finish my paper for school, and go masturbate!

I START: I start everything at the last minute! I am such a procrastinator!

I FINISH: Everything at the last minute! I know, shame on me. I never practice what I preach to others!

Okay, hopefully that was enjoyable. So, in place of one of my naked pics, instead I leave you with a naked Tahoe. I love the lake! I miss snowboarding though! Oh, and it is good to be back!

xoxo~andi

Thursday, May 04, 2006

Boring..Boring..

Okay, I am bored. I can not believe my blog is gone! It sucks. I worked so hard on it, and now it is gone~just a memory for anyone that cared. I feel sort of sad. I actually had to watch t.v. tonight and do my homework instead of get creative. To be honest, I am not sure if I can hold out for not blogging for very long. I mean, here I am already and it has been only one day. I wonder if I am now addicted to blog world. Hmmm...that gives me an idea....a 12 step group for recovering blog-o-hlics.....

Anyway, it looks like maybe some of my work concerns are staring to settle down. I may be back. I am still not sure. Maybe I will be back and even better this time...oh, I could only wish.

Something amazing happened today though! I had 47 emails in my box asking me to please come back to bloggerville, and how sad that I was gone. And many of you have offered me guest space on your own blogs...I am really touched and want to thank you SO very much. It is weird that I have made such good friends through this experience. I care about so many of you, and through this, I have learned so much about myself. So, thanks to each of you for all of your inspiring words, your friendship and your sharing.

I will let you know what I decide soon.

Hugs~
andi

Wednesday, May 03, 2006

Just to let you know

Hi Friends!

I just wanted to let you all know that I am okay. I have had to remove my blog for personal reasons. Some of you have been nice enough to let me guest blog on your own blogs, so never fear Andi is still around. As a matter of fact, I will be doing Ask Andi soon on Sugar's blog. I will let you know when I post.

Thanks to everyone for your support and love. You have all been incredibly inspiring to me!

Hugs!
andi