Tuesday, May 29, 2007

Just Words....

It is amazing how much can change is a year. Last year at this time, I was praying that I would get my new job...and here it is a year later and I have it. As most of you are aware, I moved out from my house in March. I like living alone, and mostly..I like living without Chris. I have been in the process of working out all of the paperwork stuff now, and in the next couple of weeks I should be divorced--officially. I am not sure how I feel about it. Some days, I think I should just suck it up and go back and pretend to be happy. I miss seeing my little one everyday. I also feel really bad because Chris is really miserable. But,then there is the part of me that feels so free finally. I finally feel like I can breathe. Of course, I also hate being alone and then hate being with someone. I feel like I am turning mentally ill...I know this is all normal, but does it really have to be this hard to be happy?

I hope you are all doing well. I will keep you updated as things progress...sheesh..I really need sex too~!

xoxo!
andi